I've finally come up with a title for my blog. It's taken a while.
This accurately describes my current situation. I've been here before, heading off to Italy on a whim and a prayer and seeing great provision for my time there, the same with going to South Africa, where God provided abundantly and enabled me to bless many people out there by sharing what I had.
And now I find myself back in the UK and without means of earning money. In the natural, it's all rather strange. I'm highly qualified and yet out of work. I guess this happens quite a lot. I've applied for jobs but none have been successful. I've scrolled through pages and pages of internet adverts and this has been largely fruitless. And the thing is, while I'm hoping to hit on something exciting that will be the perfect job for me, I also have in the back of my mind a little idea that this particular search is pointless as I won't find the job for me here.
The only thing that keeps coming to me is the singular word 'WRITE' and also a very strong sense that I will be 'IN THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME'. Hence the re-starting of my blog. And so it's a waiting game.
Last week I went on a conference in Leamington Spa called 'Voices'. It was run by the Listening to God team that is part of The Well Christian Healing Centre. The main speaker was Steve Witt from Cleveland, Ohio. He shared many stories and taught us great stuff about prophecy. If you are interested, get his new book called 'Voices'. It's very good and covers a lot of what he shared with us. There's nothing like being there and experiencing God working through him live, but if you couldn't be there, the book makes up for that.
God is our heavenly Father who loves for us to play with him, like a human father wanting his toddlers to come and engage with him. He weaves mysteries into our lives so that we stop and try to figure them out and in the process draw near to him and that's when he reveals to us what the mysteries mean. It's not some strange 'I'll hide all the good stuff away' gesture on God's part, more a game of hide and seek; but God doesn't hide things very well and so it's not too difficult for us to find what he wants us to find, when we turn to him and ask him. Like Moses and the Burning Bush. There were loads of bushes burning in the desert, it was hot and things spontaneously combusted at times. The difference with this one was that the bush was not being destroyed by the fire. And it's only when Moses turned aside to investigate further did God speak to him.
2 questions to ask God in times of mystery:
What does this mean?
What must I do?
It's like God is there, wanting to engage with us and waiting expectantly for us to turn aside and look to Him and engage with Him. We need to chase after more of God, if that's what we want. We can be open to Him moving in our lives, but maybe 'being open' is not enough, maybe He wants us to chase after things instead, to take a step in the right direction, a step of faith, a step towards the unknown and possibly downright weird and then He moves in to meet us.
Well, now I'm at that stage of coming to the end of my official sick leave and facing uncertain times. Someone gave me a blessing at the conference which simply said 'Bless your finances - that you will not be without' (and they didn't have a clue about my situation). So I know that God's got it all under control and He will provide.
